it’d be great if ppl would stop assuming things about me. since carrying around a portfolio and visiting the art store i usually get asked once in a while if i’m an artist (meaning drawing and painting cuz that’s limit of ppl’s comprehension of what art entails) and how amazing my work must be. i always reply that i’m not good and ppl don’t believe me. one guy wanted a business card or a website. i’m seriously mediocre at drawing. (i finally got a handle of making things look correct, but lack a full range of value.) i don’t know how else to express that i’m not this amazing artist. i’m just taking art classes. for whatever reason it happened today, but the lady asked if i was a designer. the first time someone said designer and not artist and didn’t try making an awkward conversation about it. this is all like bio and ppl assuming i’m smart. i don’t care if it’s positive or not don’t assume things about ppl’s capabilities based on what they choose to study. the two are not related.

i recently acknowledged w/ myself that as much as i think it would be cool to be an artist it’s something i’m not. maybe one day. i’m better at design work over drawing and don’t need to feel like crap in my drawing class. today i found out that all the amazing drawers suck at design, color theory and doing anything on a computer. i confirmed this idea w/ ppl not in my class by overhearing a conversation. it’s a little bizarre to me that ppl seem so limited in skill.

i do think this one guy should pursue illustration as a career. he has natural talent. he said he doesn’t want to cuz freelance is scary and a job job has financial security. apparently he’s changed his major 4 times.

ah well. i’ll enjoy my class since it’s expanded to mixed media and we can do fantasy pieces now.

where are libby’s kids and who’s taking care of them?






Gotta put this on blast.
We never needed a white savior.

I hate this country.

What I learned from this video:

  • 100 million Native Americans died at the hands of white colonists
  • Instead of planting crops the colonists spent their days digging random holes in the ground looking for gold. They started starving and dug up Indian corpses to eat. They took Indian prisoners and forced them to teach the colonists how to farm
  • Native Americans had massive cities with tens of thousands of well constructed houses, intricate water canals and large merchant areas.
  • The Native Americans used soaps, deodorants and breath sweeteners while colonists never bathed or even took of their clothes
  • There was a delousing policy with the mantra Nits create Lice; nits being Native American babies, so their goal was to kill every Indian, including babies 
  • In the 1700’s 80% of the Federal Budget went towards eradicating the Native American population so they could take their developed farmland
  • Colonists leaders went town after town killing men women and children under the approval of George Washington
  • "Pursue Indians to extermination" -Thomas Jefferson
  • California governor (1849-1851): “extermination must continue to be waged until the Indian becomes extinct”

The main factor which prevented Native American extinction was the fact they were used for slave labor. The most prized Native Americans were young girls who were said to be valued for labor and lust (that one white dude in your ethnic studies class that says he’s 1/36th Cherokee?)

In modern times children were forced into Indian Boarding Schools whose goal was to “Kill the Indian in them”. It was federal policy. They were beaten if they used their native tongue, they were forced to dress and style their hair like whites 

This country was literally built on terrorism and mass murder. White people are savage terrorists.

Until, this is taught in schools everywhere- “history class” is merely a racism propaganda course.

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Stained Glass Driverless Sleeper Car of the Future by Dominic Wilcox.

Photos: Sylvain Deleu

It’s on exhibition now at:
Design Junction, London
18-21 September 2014
The Sorting Office
21-31 New Oxford Street
London WC1A 1BA

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so i just accidentally killed a moth. he flew into the refrigerator. i considered closing the door and letting him freeze cuz he couldn’t find his way out w/ the door wide open. then i tried to help him, but he stopped flying around and i think i squashed him trying to push him out. then he flip over and started twitching. now he’s in the garbage can. rip little moth.

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i’ve never met someone so particular about typefaces in all my life. some designer made something that i’ve been fixing. they used adobe devanagari for the body type and my boss never heard of the font so he looked it up and it had something to do w/ sanskrit so he made me change it. i really don’t understand why it needed to be changed. there’s this idea of a “classic font” that he wants everything made in. i assume that means common/safe font, i’m guessing for compatibility issues. per the usual i have to show evidence that it’s a “classic” font. the “safe” font looks nearly identical and that was ok. i ended up making a pdf of the file so i dunno wtf the problem was.

i have to do these team building exercises and the other volunteers/interns say they’re not comfortable doing it which bothers me. i’m being a “team player” and doing these stupid improv games and offering to go first, but ppl are unsure about me. fuck. i’m being all proactive and taking risks and shit which isn’t me at all. i think that’s better than just sitting back waiting for others to make a move. anyway, for one of the games i said i was bugs bunny and the chinese intern didn’t know who that was. (i thought bugs bunny was universal at this point.) so i had to explain who he was. he somehow picked up that he was in space jam w/o me saying much. so then my boss didn’t know what space jam was so i had to explain the plot of the movie. UGH.

what world am i living in??