i feel like i work in the twilight zone or maybe dante’s hell. it’s been brought to my attention numerous times that me focusing on work and not office gossip nor whatever one does in their free time is a problem and a personal goal of some to change me. seriously?? frankly speaking if i don’t talk to you i’m probably not interested in the conversation and not just being some weird introvert. i honestly don’t care to hear a million stories about your kids. talking more and louder isn’t gonna make things better either nor is commenting on my lack of involvement in the conversation. UGH. work is work. i’m not there to make friends. GTFOH.

i have a very odd relationship with food and practically no one i know understands it. most people would just say i’m picky. i disagree since i’ll actually try the food. there are some things i know by looking at it that i’ll hate and it’s 100% confirmed if i actually try it. the problem is the majority of foods i get no sense of enjoyment from eating them. the stronger the taste the worse it is. i’m basically reduced to very bland foods usually w/o seasoning. (usually boring american foods. ethnic foods are 50/50. seafood is a big NO-NO) it works in my favor cuz i like to actually taste the individual food instead of a cacophony of flavors. i might be a supertaster, but as far as i can tell i’m not. i really should buy some PTC paper to solve this puzzle. i also prefer food w/ texture. it makes me feel like i’m actually eating something as opposed to something soft. yogurt is a good exception to this maybe cuz it’s like a liquid.

all this being said, trying to eat like 6 times a day to boost my metabolism is a challenge. i also don’t feel hungry throughout the day so i feel like i’m forcing myself to eat out of obligation instead of desire. working 3rd shift isn’t helping cuz i just wanna sleep all the time.

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the middle of the aisle isn’t the place to try and be kawaii w/ your bf nor is the middle of the road the place to stop your car and talk to some person you see on the side of the road.

why can’t ppl be considerate enough to move to the side!

i’ll give myself 2 months to change my life or at least get the gears in motion.

i thought my legs would be sore, but it’s my back. i don’t feel like doing anything.